All of a sudden my reading list popped up again lol. Thank god! *whew!*
Thank you Launna, for your very sweet and insightful comment, I have replied to it under the "wishing and dreaming..." post :)
Let me start my first day of this juice cleanse off with a little bit about myself:
I have struggled with my weight, and disordered eating ever since I can remember, skipping meals, and days worth of meals, binge eating when I was depressed. In high school my weight struggles got worse. I dropped a significant amount of weight (70 lbs or so, I'm not sure what I started out at, but I was rather skinny) through starving, purging, diet pills, laxatives, and counting every calorie. The idea behind my juice fast is to take the guesswork out of weight loss, and form a healthy habit (that will hopefully be lifelong ) that will keep me from falling back into the destructive pattern I have created for myself. The journey is not just about getting skinny, it is about becoming healthy, mind, body, and soul.
I have to get up every morning, look at myself in the mirror, right into my own eyes, and convince myself that I am beautiful, worthwhile, and that all of the love and affection that I receive from family and friends is not misplaced.
I AM going to learn to love and accept myself for who I am, and what I look like. It will not be easy. I have programmed myself to hate my body, to constantly wish for thinner thighs, or a smaller waist.
TODAY this endless chain of self-hatred and self destruction STOPS.
Starting off Day 1 with a simple mixture of apple, grape, and yellow peach, it's heavenly <3
Heading to the supermarket soon to pick up supplies for the mean green, which will be the juice that I consume the largest amount of (3 to 4 times a day)
Will post again later, or maybe tomorrow depending on how busy the day gets :)
Happy Juicing :)
xoxo
Daisy <3
Daisy... did I tell you I like to comment :)
ReplyDeleteI have never done the binge eating or purging ... although I have eaten a fair amount of really bad food consistently...
I was told I was fat when I was a teenager... I was not... not in the least... I didn't actually become larger until I had my first daughter when I was 18 and even then I was a healthy size...
I don't listen to anyone else, I don't put myself down anymore, I tell myself the truth, I am beautiful because that comes from the inside out... nothing on the outside means anything if you are not happy with yourself on the inside..
Let's do this together, get healthy and love ourselves :)
I will remember this...to keep telling myself that i AM beautiful, and that I AM worth something! I have so much love and support from my fiance, and he has helped me to realize just how much I am worth, and how much I have to offer the world :)
ReplyDeleteyes ma'am! we can do this! :)
xoxo
daisy <3